Hey everyone! I hope you’re having a great week and enjoying the spring weather!
Yesterday I lazily rolled out of bed and went to work at 9:30am. Since high school I’ve made the habit of waking up about 2 hours before I have to leave. If I have a test to study for I’ll wake up even earlier so I can study when I’m at my best, which is in the mornings. I LOVE mornings. Call me crazy but there’s just some wonderful satisfaction in waking up even though I’m tired and everyone else is asleep. I love exerting my will power and discipline whenever I can!
Buttttttt…. since I’m in my senior year of undergrad and my classes are not nearly as difficult as my previous pre-med courses, I’ve loosened up a TON and 1.5-2 hours is usually the earliest I’ll get up before I leave. I’ve had an amazing year. Now that I’ve been accepted to med school I can breath a giant sigh of relief and focus on appreciating the time I have left before I crack down on the medical school studying.
It almost feels like I’ve been told that I’m going to die in 4 months (the start of medical school). But not in a bad way – in a “I’m going to use this time I have left to do as much as I can and be as happy as I can” and the death part isn’t so bad – like looking forward to heaven (maybe not exactly what it’ll be like but I love studying and medicine so pretty close…)
But anyway, I’ve never been happier because I’m finally doing all the little things I said I’d do when I wasn’t studying, not partying/drinking but like crossing things off my bucket list and starting projects that I’ve always wanted to do.
My exercise schedule has been great too because every time I don’t want to workout I just picture myself laboriously studying away wishing I could spare an extra hour to workout. Or all the times I worked out last year and wanted to spend an extra hour but couldn’t. Getting in as much as I can before it’s limited is a HUGE motivator for me!
I’ve noticed a similar trend with my time spent with family and friends. I’ve missed many girlfriend-dates and events/vacations with my family but now I’ve given every single one a green light! I’m even skipping an important class in a couple weeks just so I can go to my Grandma’s Birthday weekend party – something I’d never think about doing before!
But oddly enough, I’ve found that even though I’ve given myself the green light to do whatever my heart pleases I’ve been healthier and more on-top of my responsibilities than ever. It’s an odd phenomenon. I think it’s because I’ve started to see self-care as a reward that I shouldn’t take for granted. My rewards aren’t a night-out drinking or a day spent laying in bed in my pajamas binge-watching Netflix (although I still watch too much Netflix).
Instead I’ve noticed how much studying and productivity make me happy. Truly happy. For a while I was worried that maybe I’m just the kind of person who would rather have a leisurely-relaxed life that wasn’t compatible with medicine. But from the past several months I’ve found confidence in the fact that even when I don’t have the pressure on me to get the best grades and study all the time I can still crack and down, learn, and be disciplined – just because I want to.
Doing things just because I want to has always been a big motivator – some people do things because they have to but I see it more as putting in the work because I want to. I chose this life even though I didn’t have to and that makes me work that much harder.
Questions for YOU:
What motivates you?
How do you spend your down time?
Do you love being disciplined or working hard?
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